I’ve been having a difficult time embracing the seasons changing lately. It feels like the tighter I grip the faster time goes by.
I wrote my first devotional on this blog when my youngest daughter was 4 years old and now she is 10 1/2 years old. I can’t believe so much has happened in the past few years, and yet I feel like my mind is stuck in the past. Dwelling on my failures, and making decisions based off of past failures.
I think as moms we spend more time grieving over our failures than we actually make the mistakes we are dwelling on.
It’s like our mistakes become apart of us instead of the goodness of God, or the good memories that we take the time to make.
Mistakes they bloom bigger than anything else we can even imagine in our minds and it is so heartbreaking.
As my children get older it seems like I’m overwhelmed in dealing with my grown up issues along with their now grown up issues.
Honestly potty training seems like a walk in the park compared to what it means to be a mother to three young adults.
I could sit for hours dwelling on the fact that I didn’t enjoy them more and I was more concerned with how hard life was back then. Or I can choose to change my mind set and my approach to parenting right now, instead of repeating old patterns of dwelling on how difficult everything is.
Being a mom is difficult, but it is also a humbling experience that truly wisps by without so much as a second glance. I can either be sad about this or I can simply be humbled by it and enjoy whatever does come my way.
I think that is the key when people say: “Enjoy your children, they grow up so fast.” It is to be thankful for everything, even the hard times.
It’s not about holding on to every moment, whether it be through pictures or literally holding onto your baby 24/7.
Motherhood is about learning how to inspire, motivate, love, and let go.
Those are the moments you cherish forever. It’s in those moments that life lessons are taught, and learned.
So today, when it seems so difficult to embrace the changes set before me, and when I want to give up on trusting God. I am reminded that it’s not about self preservation, or even preserving a memory, it’s about living in the moment and being thankful for every moment you get to look into the eyes of your child.
One day the season is going to shift and we will realize the change was permanent, not temporary. Our hearts will wonder how to move into that new normal and all we really need to do is stop questioning the seasons, and the open doors, but learn to live in the moment and walk through that door to the new chapter in our life. Life is forever changing, and so are your children and so is motherhood. It’s time we embrace that change instead of being sad about everything that is new in our lives.