When You Feel Like A Failure

“And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Christ Jesus.” Philippians 1:6 (ESV)

“And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up.” Galatians 6:9 (ESV)

A brain fuzzy from lack of sleep, I try to handle a sibling conflict. Impatient, I speak harshly. I enforce unnecessary consequences. Later, I realize I had made matters worse. I wasn’t Christ-like in my interactions with my children. Instead of pointing them toward Christ, my behavior turned them away.

Some days, my failures as a mother point an accusing finger straight at my soul. It tells me I am no good and a failure as a Christ-follower.

Do you have days where you feel like you’ve failed in your walk with Christ?

Scripture challenges those lies that I am a failure. Instead, it tells me that while I was yet a sinner, Christ died for me. (Romans 5:8) When I stumble in my walk, I remind myself that he bore those very sins on the cross. His grace covers me each time I fall.

Not only that, the Bible tells me that the path to holiness has already been paved. The righteous life Jesus lived is given to me. I just need to walk in it. He will complete the good work he started. Christ paid a high price for me, He will not allow me to fail.

I rest in that promise and it strengthens me.

On those days where I stumble in my flesh, He pulls me back up so that I may stand on the road of grace. And I remember anew the Love that died for me. It was His grace that paid for me, His grace that gives me His righteousness and His grace that helps me to continue my walk with Him.

Do you sense His grace today?

For further reading: Hebrews 4:16, 2 Peter 1:2, Romans 5:10

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Sowing Our Tears

“Those who sow with tears will reap with songs of joy.  Those who go out weeping, carrying seed to sow, will return with songs of joy, carrying sheaves with them.”  Psalm 126:5-6

Only God knows the number of tears I have cried over my children.  The tears flowed a river each time they were wheeled away into surgery.  I’ve cried on my knees to God and poured out to him my parenting struggles.  And I’ve cried tears of joy when they asked Jesus to be their Savior.

As one who struggles with depression, tears are my constant companion.  I often struggle with the weight of them and ask God to take them away.  When I search God’s word for answers, I always end up in the Psalms.  And it’s in Psalm 126 He is using to teach me that while the pain that accompanies the tears is difficult, it is not without purpose.

These verses refer to a time in Israel’s history when they returned from exile.  The pain and sorrow they experienced as captives finally came to an end.  Our sorrow and tears too will not last forever, there will be an end.  In Psalms 30, we learn that “weeping may last for the night, but joy comes in the morning.” Spurgeon said of this passage, “Hence, present distress must not be viewed as if it would last for ever; it is not the end, by any means, but only a means to the end. Sorrow is our sowing, rejoicing shall be our reaping. If there were no sowing in tears there would be no reaping in joy. ” But this end to the tears is not just for any and everyone who cries, the ending of tears only comes to those “who sow with tears.”

We must sow our tears.  We must not just let them fall anywhere, they must fall in a place where they can be planted and nourished.  Our tears are not for us alone but are to be used for God’s glory.  In planting our tears, we are promised that they will produce a harvest of joy.

Jesus knew sorrow well for he was “a man of sorrows.”  He came to earth to walk among us and experienced the same pain and suffering we all battle.  He wasn’t just here as a tourist, to merely observe what it was like to be human in a fallen world.  He entered the grief and pain of the people and experienced it for himself.  But he knew that “joy comes in the morning” and sowed his tears as he hung on the cross.  Scripture tells us in Hebrews 12:2 that he did this “for the joy set before him.”  And what was that joy?  Our salvation and restoration of our relationship with God.

How can we sow our tears?  First, we must always bring our tears to Jesus.  We need to lament in prayer before Him as He catches each tear in a bottle.  Our faith and love in Him will strengthen as we trust in Him to use those captured tears for His glory.  In prayer, we’ll plant our tears for the salvation of loved ones, for those hurting, for our own sin and for growth in our faith.  We also need to consider how we can use our tears to encourage others with the same encouragement He has given us. Our tears will reap a harvest for the kingdom when we reach out to others in the name of Jesus.  Matthew Henry wrote “there are tears which are themselves the seed that we must sow, tears of sorrow for sin, our own and others, tears of sympathy with the afflicted church, and the tears of tenderness in prayer and under the word. These are precious seed, such as the husbandman sows when corn is dear and he has but little for his family, and therefore weeps to part with it, yet buries it under ground, in expectation of receiving it again with advantage.”

We may experience times in this life where we see firsthand the harvest of our sorrows as did Joseph and Job.  Even if we don’t witness it here, we are promised unending joy in eternity with our Savior where “He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.”(Rev. 21:4)

“Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.”  Matthew 5:4

For further study:  Psalm 116:8, Hebrews 5:7-9, Isaiah 35:10

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To Be Still

“Be still and know that I am God.” Psalm 46:10

When was the last time you were still?  For me it seems like it was before I became a mom.  Since then all I do is run.

It seems no matter how early I get up, I’m always late getting my son to school.  “Hurry!” is each mornings mantra.  I rush to accomplish chores and errands before I pick up the kids.  We run from one activity or responsibility to another.  Our culture is also fast paced and busy.  While technology has made many things easier and freed up time in certain areas, it has also given us more things to do.  There are always emails to send, status’ to check, and blog holes to get sucked into.

Our relationship with God is often rushed as well.  He becomes something we check off our “to do list.” We read our five-minute devotional for the day and we’re good.  We dutifully pray and run through our list of petitions for people and things on our prayer request list and run off to the next activity.

Yet, too often I don’t feel that close to God.

Scripture tells me that to know Him, I must be still.  What is it about stillness that helps me to know God?  When I read His word in a rush, I don’t get a chance to digest it.  We all know it’s better for our bodies when we chew and swallow our food slowly–the same is true of our souls.  We need to take time to allow the Spirit to use the spiritual food we’ve eaten to convict our hearts and deepen our relationship with God.

When we pray and read the word too quickly, we aren’t giving God time to respond to us.  It becomes a one way communication.  When we pause and quiet our hearts to hear what the Spirit is saying, we’ll find that the word takes on richer meaning and becomes deeply rooted in our soul.  When we listen to the “still small voice” instead of rushing through our list of prayer requests, we may hear in our heart God’s response to our prayer.

Peter knew the importance of communing in prayer with our Lord.  When Peter was called to heal Tabitha in Acts 9, he sent everyone out of the room and prayed.  We don’t know how long he prayed for but it was long enough for him to hear God’s response and know that God would raise Tabitha from the dead.  Upon completing his prayer, he told Tabitha to rise.

Jesus always made prayer a priority.  He took regular breaks from His work of ministry to pray to His Father.  He knew that the only way to be near His father was to get away from the noise and busyness of His life to a quiet place.  The vineyards were a favorite place for Him to be alone with His Father, as it was on that last night before He was arrested.   And it was there He received strength to continue the work He was sent to do.

In the craziness of our lives, we have to be intentional about being with God.  He can’t be included among a long list of things to accomplish for the day.  He is like the air we breathe and the food we eat; a necessity for our life.  We must dine with Him every day, multiple times a day to receive the strength we need to fulfill our calling.  And we must get away  from the multiple distractions that thunder so loud that we can’t hear His voice.

Because it’s in the quiet and the stillness that He is there.

For further study:  Psalm 42, John 6:35,  John 15

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